Its all been a whirlwind of drama I must say, everyday it still kinda hits me again. Its like a never ending wake up call about the reality of the world we live in. I feel like I’m on Trip with Jhene Aiko when she said “oblivion!”, because I swear I wish I could go back to a time where I didn’t know about any of this. But I wouldn’t change any of it, because it all lead me to this person I grew into almost overnight. My spirit has awakened and yes joy cameth in the morning for sure, and thank God it did.
Through this process, I’ve been taking a lot of me time. Everyday just a few hours of things things for myself. Taking care of me has been the most contagious, courageous thing I’ve ever done and I finally feel free of so many burdens that weren’t even my own. Silly, the worst thing you could ever do for someone is carry their burdens, its something only meant for God to do.
The days have been so beautiful. Especially today, the sun was shinning, the weather broke after the rain with the coolest breeze of the summer. Feels like an old summer night again, riding around with the windows down, with a hoody and shorts, like at the beach when the storm is finally over. Only thing missing is the stars. But even so, I can’t help but to smile. Looking back at how blessed I am and how far I’ve come. I went to work today, relaxed at the park, chilled with Ash, thought about myself, hung out with myself.
I came home, strung some lights up on the balcony, put on some Goapele and just vibed thinking about getting closer to my dreams and how the most profound journeys to greatness are nothing short of trials and pain. And the realization of how when you put your faith in God and work on yourself, miracles happened and the rest will soon follow.
This one’s for Ash, we’re almost there💋