Isn’t the sight of Cherry Blossoms so reminiscent of the season changing? Whenever I see them I get that familiar feeling of May, flowers, warm breeze, and warm weather approaching. Spring fever! I think I’ve got it, and I’m not ashamed. I just want to open up my windows, get out for some fresh air, and breathe easy!
When I saw this whole street lined at the curb with these beautiful trees, I was in awe because I love cherry blossoms they’re, nostalgic to me. They remind me of walking around Rahway as a teenager, down Cherry Street, near the train station and by my old dance studio. I was mostly shocked to see them here though, right in the middle of an area that is full of warehouse apartments, pavement, and brick walls. Not too many trees and shrubs. I mean I’ve seen some cacti around, but who doesn’t love flowers and the way they can light up the aesthetic of a city neighborhood?
This day was more to me than just going out to get some pretty pictures, though. I wanted to get these pictures for my blog so that I could share this experience. I had planned to go do a little shoot, but when I got up this Sunday morning it was overcast, it was cold, I was short on time because my mom was coming to visit and plus I wanted to go to Church. Immediately, I started thinking of every excuse not togo do this and just stay in bed, because the idea of it just seemed like more of an annoyance at this point. But then I started thinking of those episodes of Top Model and how even when the models had just came from traveling abroad, they’re tired, its cold. They JUST DO IT! And that’s what sets them apart from everyone else that just continues to dream.
I wanted to capture this moment while they’re still in bloom as a reminder that the seasons are ever changing, and when you start having second thoughts about the things you have to do and sacrifice in order to make your dreams come true, just do it! The blossoms bloom even when its still cold and wintery, they just know their time. Your time is now.
So I guess I’m taking my own advice when I say that I’m finally getting back into reading! If you’ve been keeping up with my blog posts, you’d know that reading was one thing I mentioned as a part of protecting your vibe and doing things that you enjoy in order to preserve your peace. (https://ireminiss.com/2017/12/13/choose-your-vibe/). I’m currently reading In a Dark, Dark Wood by Ruth Ware, and I must say that it’s really good so far if you’re into some suspense and mystery while you read and the tone is really light and relatable for me.
I’m excited, because I’ve always loved to read ever since I was young, but it has been pretty hard to read for pleasure during the past few years. Partially because I never really had time to read while I was in school, while I was also working part time. But more so because I feel like I was going through a stage where I was trying to get out of reading young adult Fiction and more into some books and authors more appropriate for my age. I used to love to read Sarah Desson, they were young and sappy and comforting for me, but now I just have a yearning for something more complex to keep me entertained, or else it’s just like watching a boring movie.
This I how I know that I’m really getting back to my old self, because this is like typical old me: always with my nose in a book. I don’t know, reading for me is just like the ultimate relaxation, it gives me alone time and quiet time for myself. The real fun in it is just getting lost in the words and in getting lost in your own imagination while wondering if the way you’re imagining the characters is how they actually are.
Hmm, what’s on your reading list? I’d love some new authors to get into. Let me know!
This is starting to become a part of who I am. Looking back is a part of learning and growing and moving forward. I thank God every day for the past though, and lessons learned, and for the chances we get to not make the same mistakes. I’m truly grateful for the time we get to experience and mature, and it’s inevitable we all got to grow up sometime.
I knew I was growing up when I realized that the same patterns in my actions will yield the same results. And when I realized this, my life started to actually yield the results I wanted.
Results are what we want, but repetition is so easy and so comfortable, and a majority of the time it gets us nowhere. It just leads us down the same road of frustration and disappointment. I didn’t start getting somewhere until I decided to start taking some chances, dip my toe in, get my feet wet. Move to a different city, take a different job, be spontaneous. I spend a lot of time consulting with other people about what’s in my own heart. How can you even do that? A part of growing up is trusting your own gut, judging yourself off of what you’ve done in the past to know your own capabilities and what you can accomplish.
I think that a lot of the time the ones closest to us can also be the ones who could ultimately hold us back the most. They just know your mistakes. You also know your mistakes, and you know what you should, would, and could do. But there comes a time where we have to break free from our old habits and repetitive, negative actions.
It’s a simple formula really:
Nostalgia – Think Back (what was the situation),
Relfection -Think About It (what did you learn from this, what could I do different), and
Growth – Move Forward (don’t make the same mistake).
“…Repition is so easy and so comfortable, and a majority of the time it leads us nowhere.”
Know yourself, don’t let your old self get in the way of who you’re trying to become. The seasons changing, so it’s the perfect time to embrace it. You’re better off growing.