Actions Speak Louder.

Actions Speak Louder.

I don’t think I could ever be with an actor. I mean, an actor can literally play the role so how would you know if they’re telling the truth? How would you know what character they decided to play for you?

I’m learning to spend more time getting to now the character of a person, because chances are if someone would do something fucked up to someone else, they’d probably do the same to you. I used to have the mentality that since I’m in a relationship with someone they’d ride for me the way I’d ride for them. And when I say relationship, I mean romantic or plutonic, because friendships are relationships too.

I’d assume it was a given, but sadly most people are just thinking of themselves in relationships. The decisions they make and things they do revolve around what’s convenient for them and they play it off like it’s all about us.

Hmm.

Character of a person is important. Certain character traits can tell you about a person’s values, morals, intentions. More importantly it’ll tell you how they will react in certain situations. Are they easily angered? Do they keep their word? Are they loyal?

I wonder what its actually like to date an actor, how do you know which character they’re putting on that day? I admit I fall victim to words. Even though actions speak way louder, I hold on to them while people just tell me what they think I want to hear. I admit I have a bad habit of taking everyone at face value and of expecting everyones word to be their bond. But I thought that’s just how it should be, right?

You know when certain actors play a role so well that you wonder if they’re really just being themselves? That’s scary. I learned that it can get a little tricky dealing with people who can easily flip their script and play a certain situational role, like easily playing Mr. Nice Guy with their shit together in company, but behind closed doors they’re crumbling and don’t have a clue of how to react when shit starts hitting the fan. I can’t deal with that.

I feel like courting someone is very important. You need time to learn their character, to let all their truths come spilling out like vomit, and learn who they really are behind closed doors. Their intentions and words should always be backed up by action.

Like, what character are you today?

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Wise Thoughts.

Wise Thoughts.

I read a good quote today, it kind of summed up everything I had already been pondering. Wisdom, and the importance of making wise choices and decisions has been on my mind lately, then it hit me. We need to surround ourselves with more wise individuals during our life journey. People stop by to give us valuable information every day, but the question is are we listening and paying attention?

I guess Ghandi found me today and left me with this, so here’s some words from the wise.💋

“Your beliefs become your thoughts,
Your thoughts become your words,
Your words become your actions,
Your actions become your habits,
Your habits become your values,
Your values become your destiny.”

-Gandhi

Ode to 07065.

Ode to 07065.

Shout out to my city!

Feeling a little far from home lately. I’ve found myself on spur of the moment road trips from Va to Jersey twice now. It’s funny, because when I go I don’t really know what it is that I’m searching for. It’s more of a yearning for something, but it’s so far into my past that I can’t grab it anymore.

When I come home now, I kind of feel like I don’t belong. Maybe I don’t anymore, maybe my time there passed a long time ago; but its still a place that I carry really near to my heart. Each time I’ve left there recently, it feels like I brought back another peace of the old me. Maybe I just had to be reminded of where I came from. I’ve always wondered why I felt so uncomfortable here in VA, eyes are always on me like I’m a tourist. I guess it’s because deep down they know I don’t belong to Virginia, and they know I never will.

Where I’m from I believe everyone had potential. As many sports and activities that I threw myself into, they were always backed by people who really believed in us. I feel like even through school our teachers gave us so much support, they were always looking out for us and giving us opportunity to take ourselves to the next level. Like, what happened to that?

Never have I been somewhere where I needed to question the intentions of someone, or wonder if someone was genuine or if someone really had my back. We were taught how how to support each other and lift each other up, how to be loyal and how to be down for the ride. These are the people who still inspire me the most today.

I remember when I first thought about starting my blog. I noticed that two of my old friends Ciarra and Bea both had a WordPress, and successful ones too. Other old friends breaking out as pageant queens, business owners, dancers, artists, athletes, designers. It’s crazy because you literally have people everyday moving away to places like New York or LA to chase their dreams. But what happens when you go 40 min outside the city? You find Rahway, NJ with all the stars right there, grinding and working to pursue everything.

It’s a funny story how I came to Rahway, but I truly believe that I was always meant to end up there. If it weren’t for some of the people I met, people who mentored me, and the connections I have gained I don’t think I would be where I am today.

So shout out to my city! We’re all grown up now and gone our separate ways, but I see everybody out here grinding, working so hard. I love seeing everybody doing well and chasing their dreams.

Never forgetting from where I came, love always.💋